Sunday, 13 March 2011

I'm back again!!!!

Hi, no you're not imagining it I am here again!

Had a rubbish weekend health wise. Spent all of Saturday with a migraine & most of this afternoon too. On  the plus side my throat seems to be better so hopefully this dip I have been having is finally coming to an end??!!

I'm feeling a bit down tonight. Had one of those hubby doesn't understand moments earlier & I got a bit upset.
Ok...ok so I have a bit of a belly at the moment, but as I said to him I would love to do some exercise & keep fit but I can't. If I did some exercise I would then need to allow time to recover & rest from doing it as I learnt in the group last year. If I do that then I won't be able to do something else .g make tea.
I want to be able to do everything but as I have just proved to myself over the last few weeks. Trying to do everything lands me in bed & really ill for 3 weeks & counting!!!

I really need to get back to what we did in the group last year scoring myself, resting, relaxation time, structured days & pacing. I know it works but it is sooo hard to keep at it.

On the scoring system 0 being REALLY bad & 10 being really good I have been a 3 this morning & a 1-2 this afternoon which equals not a great day & fluctuating between 3 numbers in one day.


Friday, 11 March 2011

its been a while!!

Hi there! Yep I am still here & yes it has been a while!! Too long in fact.

Thank you to all the lovely people who have read my blog & emailed me. I apologise that I do not keep in touch very well, but it is always great to hear from you all & I try to reply & keep in touch as best as I can.

I am struggling at the moment with my energy levels & my throat is coming up & down depending how tired I am. Over the past 3 weeks I have spent a great deal of time stuck in  bed or on the sofa.

Everything seemed to come to a head after my last appointment at Leeds. We went for a follow up appointment after our first go at IVF which failed :-(
I needed to release the emotions by cleaning etc & did far too much, followed by more too much etc & now I am paying the price for the energy & the emotional energy the IVF took plus the energy & I have stupidly spent trying to ignore I have ME.....yes I I'm afraid I have fallen back into the 'I don't have ME, if I just do this I'll be fine!!' day stuck in bed feeling as awful as possible!!

Sleep has been a problem too but is getting better again. Trying not to go back onto the tablets but now & then I have a couple just so I get at least one nights sleep!!

Ok well I've rambled enough for tonight so I'll go see how my ebay is doing & then try going to bed.
Night night x